On my mind #3

I haven’t been in a good mood recently. I’ve been so down today and I’ll tell you why. Yesterday I met my ex,at an event for school. I saw him staring at me a few times but didn’t say hi or anything. He text me to come around the back of the building to chat. Nothing happened we only talked. I could’ve believe what was happening I was literally shaking. It was so nice. We’ve been friends for a while now but there is still something there and there always has been. Plot twist…he has a girlfriend. They are always breaking up and this isn’t the first time we talked while they were going out. I want to save the whole story for another blog post thought. It’s such a long story. Me and this boy have been on and off for 4 years. He’s hurt me so much in the past and I still can’t get over him. He has made me into the person I am now. He’s such a huge part of my life I can’t just forget him. I know I’m only 16 and have no idea about what’s coming ahead of me. Everyone has these teenage loves right?

Anyways I need a bit of advice right now😂We still like each other but he has a girlfriend and wants both of us. Do I just forget everything that has happened in the past 4 years or wait for the right time? Ughh even if I forget about the love part of this I have to be civil with him. Since we’re in the same area and I see him alottt. My head is so messed up right now. He wants to go there with me but doesn’t have the balls to actually do it. I find myself always looking for him when im out. I compare other boys to him. But no one can ever be the same as him. He was my bestfriend. I told him everything and trusted him with my life. He was there for me when I needed someone the most.

What I’m trying to say is,I don’t understand that if two people have had feelings for each other for years why they can’t just be together. Cringee

Help your clueless girl out and send me your thoughts/advice on my situation,it would mean a lot!😩

~Blondie Xx

3 thoughts on “On my mind #3

  1. Steer clear sweetie, if he’s telling you he wants you aswell as his girlfriend then he’s betraying her trust, what’s to say he won’t do the same to you? Be strong x

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    1. Ya that’s true. Even as a friend I miss him,he’s like the boy version of me😬We’ve tried so many times to stay away from each other but always end up back together. I’ll try be as strong as I can,thank you x


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